Happy new year. Happy new day. Happy new starshine, a billion billion beings blinking on, and on the dark side a billion billion blink off as if it was the end of something, but it’s always been this way.
The worlds always been on fire, fear about to outpace hope, love seemingly swallowed by death, our potential locked behind glass, unable to break fast onto the hallowed ground we can see, but on which we do not yet stand.
And yet, and yet, here we the fuck are, all together, despite such impossible odds, drawing a map with no idea of the territory to come, only this vague and persistent feeling that it might include some tidying up before we move on.
What? Well, the detritus of last night’s party. The round rings of spills sticking to the coffee table, speckles from Erin’s shiny pants. What’s left of the season. The cards. The tree to the curb, sweep its needles, pluck the one stuck to the back of your pant leg. Our lives, the relationships that make them. The mud from our past sticking to our cleanest feeling. The planet, its hurt rivers and oceans. And as we do, there is not sadness, but great joy, for each beginning is welded to its end.
It’s always been this way. We’ve always been stuck to the music that life is blaring through us, bursting us like catapulting stars into the future, more truly beautiful than our deepest dream.
Let’s lean into the beautiful. Now’s always been the time.
Here’s some music, some of my favorite tracks from last year. Sorry I’m a few hours late on posting it. I had some celebrating to do last night. And forever more.
Glad to share this puzzle of living with friends who have such fine eyes, catch all the colours mine miss, pull the pieces closer together. May you get everything you need in this, difficult and lovely life.
https://soundcloud.com/doctorjames/2018-it-was-always-this-way